Lost in Uncertainties

After one week of paternity leave, I resumed office last 20 March. Seven days are not enough to understand fatherhood and I secretly wished for longer days. I now understand why most fathers I knew go home early from office, seldom join the boys-night out, and have graduated from bar room jokes to diaper/milk talks. I have not realized that fatherhood also affects my net life. My google key words changed from [MUSIC, MOVIE, CAR, BUSINESS, SCANDAL, TRADING] to [BABY CARE, BABY GROWTH, BABY MILESTONE] and anything with baby on it. My most visited website is the blog my wife prepared for Karl. I joined some mailing groups whose members are all professional & working fathers talking about baby matters. And, if you observed, my recent posts were all baby-centric. Indeed I am a certified baby addict convert.

After two months of maternity leave, my wife will resume office next week, 15 April. She’s been on leave for 75 days but it seems like yesterday. She really enjoyed motherhood that the thought of coming back to work sort of saddened her. She surely loves her job but she loves Karl more. Perhaps all working mothers have went through that stage, and all managed to survived. Motherhood is entirely different from the corporate career, yet it is a career in itself. I admired my wife for being the best in both worlds.

After 64 days, Karl turns 2-month old today, 08 April. He does not understand the concept of time yet, and we are grateful for that. At least he does not need to look at the clock from time to time to check if it’s going-home-time, or hope everyday is weekend or a holiday, or wish Mommy & Daddy will not leave him anymore for office/business. Because if that happened, I wonder how me & my wife could refuse him.

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